Hi, thank you for reading. My name is Daniel D. Marquez and I am the owner of this journal. I am currently 20 years old, I live in Quezon City, and I am the youngest of one sibling. I have a bubbly, happy, and talkative type of personality. But the irony is, I am usually keeping that to myself until I personally know the person. The reason for that is because I am introverted and it always makes me shy to socialize. Nevertheless, I always make sure that I presented myself well and make the best impression among all of my first meet-ups.

You can learn more about me by understanding my philosophy in life and that is; "Money is the root of all evil". It is rest assured that I will never lie and deceive for money because if I let myself be tempted with any amount, I might as well let myself be tempted with anything else, for the love of money is the root of all evil.

December 8, 2021

It is getting closer to Christmas day but I felt nothing special. It's as if it is just another normal day and I can't understand why because when I was young, I cannot even contain myself from how excited I was.

I was scrolling down through the timeline of my Facebook account when I suddenly came across a post that talked about a similar situation that I was in. The post tackled the loss of the sense of spark/happiness during Christmas day. The commentators under the post all have shared a story in a similar situation as well. 

They conspired that maybe it has something to do with the pandemic because according to some, their happiness started to fade 2 years ago when the pandemic has started. While according to others, nothing has changed for it is us who have changed due to the inevitable force of maturity; suggesting that we became matured.

I believe that we became mature and it has nothing to do with the virus because in my case, the loss of sense of happiness during Christmas day has started to diminish way before the pandemic has even started.

I believe that it has something to do with our maturity because our sense of happiness differs differently and changes over time. Base on the experiences of the young people around me, they still perceive Christmas as similar as we did when we were young. I believe that our sense of happiness changes over time as we now view the world in a whole different spectrum as opposed to how little we know when we were young. We tend to lose the sense of happiness because we perceive happiness differently than how we see it before. Happiness is much more complex and bigger than waiting for Christmas day. It may have something to do with the pandemic, but I think it just somehow fastens the process because our perception would become different regardless. 

Or maybe it has something to do with expectation?

Maybe we still expect things to be something that we are hoping for and become disappointed once it did not happen? Hence the loss of sense of happiness.