Back to school!!! I mean, back to the online class. Today we had our synchronous meetings again. I'm kinda happy and tired at the same time. Happy in a way that I can be more productive again and tired because I know how many tasks were waiting for me in the epnu. Our class starts at 11 am but my alarm is set at 8am. I usually woke up 1-2 hours before the class, but today I decided to wake up a bit early. It's because as I was always telling in this journal lately, I've been really exhausted to the point where I know that this isn't my usual self. So today I try to get my old self back by doing my old routine. I wake up early, had my breakfast, and took a bath before joining the synchronous meeting. This actually helped me to be more productive because I took care of myself first before doing anything. In that case, I can focus more on what I supposed to finish for this day. What I've learned about this is that it is really important to understand your own routine. Having a routine can help us to be more organized and productive at the same time.

Second day since after the break. My mind and body are still not functioning well. It's not cooperating with me. And today I just found out that we really have our midterm exam with the subject I'm having a hard time for this term. My friend in the other section told me that part 2 of the midterm is an oral exam and it frightens me. Luckily, we don't have synchronous sessions today. I really want to sleep since my head is hurting like hell, but I decided to work on my asynchronous tasks even if it is due next week. In that way, I can focus on reading and reviewing for our oral exam. This decision made me feel proud of myself. I feel like I slowly getting myself back on track. I just hope this will get better, I will get better. 

It's rest day today! I'm still getting myself back to be productive again. I'm still anxious about our midterm exam in Contemporary Family Life subject. But I wasn't able to focus on that subject because I watched Dead Poets Society today for our ProfEd subject. It took me hours to finish the reaction paper. I didn't realize that it was time to go to bed. My usual routine is that when I'm in bed, that's the time where I completely rest, watch funny youtube videos before sleeping but today is an exemption. I decided to read finished one chapter of the reading even though I'm in bed already before watching YouTube videos. It's because I'm really anxious about our midterm/recitation. If only I manage my time well today, then I wouldn't do that. Time management is really the secret to be productive, but sometimes our body and mind won't cooperate with us. I just hope that this won't happen again, where I bring acad-related stuff until bedtime. It's not a good practice because I will just exhaust myself more. It was a bad decision, but it somehow made me feel at ease. 

We just had one synchronous session today, and I woke up late since our session is in the afternoon. I regret it since I feel like I wasted so much time. In return, after the synchronous class, I try to finish as much as I can. And I review for our graded recitation tomorrow. I did it because I can't afford to waste so much time, we have so many things to finish. What I earned from this is that I know which are my priorities.